Some Untouchable Dream
When my thoughts wander aimlessly,
they lead me to your image.
Joyful, confusing, misunderstood,
you touch my life in certain unknown ways.
Uncertainty fills me when you're near.
The depth of your eyes enlightens me,
as does the imaginary music in my mind...
although I cannot comprehend the reason.
Misery, anger, and helplessness engulf me,
for I am but a lost child in your presence.
Your presence which thrives in my thoughts,
my dreams...my motives.
When you enter my thoughts, you are alone.
Alone only because I see no other when you're there.
Rapturous delight fills me when I imagine your touch
as it would be, however small and misleading.
To think of such things brings great pain to my heart
where it wrenches and twists....
Until the tears spill from my eyes.
12 January 1991